I have a new friend who is very ill. She is now at end of life. For the last two nights I have had troubling dreams. I believe that they are not my dreams as much as I have been experiencing her dream world. I dreamed that my husband quit his stable, secure position with the Federal Government in Washington, DC, where he was highly esteemed. Then I dreamed he worked for a private company and quit that position also. I started to feel these awful feelings of insecurity, vulnerability and stress. I realizied that my life depended upon me jumping back into the Rat Race and making contact. I needed to contact some of my former clients and line up work contracts so that life as I knew it could continue. I felt like I had fallen through the cracks.
It was an awful nightmare. Security means everything to me and I couldn’t believe my husband would be so out of his mind. How could he allow this to happen to us? Had he no regard for himself or his family? When I woke up I realized that this was a nightmare and that this was not my dream. My husband would never put us at risk like this. He was trustworthy, honest, exceptionally bright and tried to give me everything so that I would feel secure. He walked on 4 July 2011. On the other hand, my friend received nothing from her former husband. She was destitute in her old age. When I realized that somehow she was reliving her life and some of the mistakes she made, I realized she had more to do on this Earth before she left. She needed to forgive herself, him, and some of the family dynamics. She needed to make peace with her past, which was not a bed of roses.
I light candles for her intentions every day. I remember her and her family, which did not have healthy relationships. Hopefully now she is making peace with them, even though she is in an induced comma. At the same time, I had been teaching her a new vision. We did Native American smudging and Ceremony as I taught her how to greet the morning with love and gratitude. Yesterday I attended a Onondaga talk and documentary. We started off with thanking all our relatives, each in turn. I carried her with me in my heart yesterday so she would come to feel these blessings as we thanked big brother Sun for lighting our day. We thanked Nokomis our grandmother the moon. We thanked the Green Nation and all the insects, birds, fish and animals that help us live. We thanked the trees, grasses, wildflowers and crops. We remembered that we must all live respectfully together and help each other. I sent her peace and surrounded her with love and Ceremony.
I light a candle this morning and hope that her transformation will go easy and that she can leave this world knowing that she has no regrets, that she has forgiven everyone with her heart, and that she feels at peace in her purpose her on this Planet, as she waits for her spirit to transform. She deserves tall of these blessings and becomes one with Source and Bliss.