Out of sight is not not of mind

Hello Insectamonarca friends,

Well, I have been on quite a trek. I got to MA from WI after suffering a heat stroke. It had me immobilized in bed for days with chills I was too ill even to dial for help. On June 10, I journeyed over to Turtle Lake, WI, and checked into a hotel. It wasn’t the best experience. Then the shuttle took me to the airport in St. Paul, MN. I had to take two shuttles.

Caught a plane to Chicago where I had to change planes and landed in Boston where my brother-in-law picked me up. I was feeling poorly. Hadn’t eaten all day and had minimum water just to keep my mouth dry. Then the troubles started to kick in. My body shut down. Constipation, rash all over my body. My sister took me to urgent care, then emergency. I had to start a regimin to get my body working again.

I checked myself into another hotel where I could have privacy and a bathroom. All I could eat was yogurt, a cup of New England Cham Chowder, water and ginger ale. I spend days here in my room. My brother-in-law picked me up at the hotel so I could get my hair cut.

I was here to attend my niece’s wedding today and there were all kinds of preperary celebrations, none of which I could attend. I went back to the hotel, only to have a total meltdown from the excessive heat and no air conditioning at the old farm house. Then the crap hit the fan. I started to not be able to breath, I was sick to my stocmach and felt I was going to die.

I called my sister and told her I was in trouble. The front desk called and asked me if I needed help. I said, “Call an ambulence and get me oxygen. I tought I would die for sure simply because I couldn’t breath. I didn’t even have my inhaler. I have COPD which is complicated by excessive heat and humidity.

The ambulance came and the medics gave me oxygen even though I still couldn’t breath. Then I was taken to critical care where they started me on steroids to open my lungs. I received excellent care in critical care and around the clock medical attention. The unknown skin rash is suspected to be possibly linked to Lynn’s disease and infectious disease ran some blood tests to see if it is something serious. In the meantime, I was transferred to the hospital and I plan to go home tomorrow.

This was a real eye opener and I don’t beleave anything happens by coincidence. I realize I can’t live out in WI all on my own with complicated health issues now. There is more to this story. It will take me a few years I suspect to sell the house and property. Mind you, I am completely restoring my antique redroom home which I love. It won’t be a quick move. I am just starting to flutter now and it will all fall into place at the appropriate time.

Meanwhile, my niece was married at 2 pm at Holy Cross College’s Catholic Church. They are all dancing away now at Fruitland’s Museaum and grounds in Harvard, MA. I breath easy knowing I can still flutter in my imagination so I hover around all my family and friends there and know I am in good hands.

This is the reason I haven’t written for wahile. I am now transforming into the next stage of my life. If my friends are reading this Blog, know that I am healing and doing Tai chi and Yoga even here in the hospital. I can always find a quite corner to BE.

Be happy Insectamonarcxa friends where ever you are.

Written at Univ. of MA Hospital, Fitchburg, MA. I don’t have my reading glasses so I can’t check for typos until I go home to my sister’s farm.

Memengwaa Ikway


  1. What an ordeal for you. I’m saying special prayers for a quick healing and return to health. My thoughts are with you. Jo


    1. Thanks Jo. I am still in the hospital. Hope to go to my sister’s tomorrow. My sister-in-law is here from FL and I she will visit later today. My cousin Jim, 83 yeear old aunt Pat and Jim’s wife Stephanie were here from Saratoga Springs, MY, and stopped by to see me. Jimmy is my favorite cousin.

      This has been quite a wake up call. I feel stronger and know I am in good hands here. I never dreamed that life could get so complicated so fast. But the good side is that I will receive excellent medical attention in MA. WI is much too remote for them to test for all stages of health and they don’t bother. One step at a time. Love you. Thanks for prayers. Believe me it matters. Mary Ellen


    1. Hi Stephanie, The photos are glorious. I love them. Can’t wait to show Ronnie and Jack today. I am healing in slow motion. Not up to travel to NY in August, too many medical appointments and relocation issues at present to stretch beyond this at this time. I will call when I am a little further along with process. It will simply be a delayed trip for now. You were already a heart beat ahead of me with thinking of Jim and a move. I simply hadn’t arrived here yet when I saw you in the hospital. I know your blessed visit helped me recover faster in hospital. You are a very wise woman.


  2. I am so thankful that you are near your family and mending. I cannot imagine that these health problems will hold you down for long knowing you and your energy levels. Prayers for you and good wishes always my friend! Love you, Gerry Chartraw


    1. Hi Gerry,

      Thank you for your continued caring. We are of the same heartbeat in friendship. I am doing well. I hope to see you in September for a hug. All continues to be a blessed time here.


  3. Beloved…I’m sorry to hear of all you’ve been going through. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and I will be carrying you in my heart. It is good to hear you are around family at this time and are in process of healing.
    Please forgive my absences here…I’ve met some challenges this year as well, but am doing my best to move forward.
    Prayers going up on the smoke!
    Radiant and Healing Blessings to You!


    1. Dearest Akasa, You are a message from the heart. I have missed our connection to the Universe. Know that I am in a new inner slowed version of me. I need to recharge my batteries and do so by mindful walking, communicating with nature, medicinal teas gathered from the pristine land and culinary herbs, organic vegetables and fruits, Tai chi and yoga. I added you to my prayer intentions remembrances. I light a votive candle early morning or evening and center on sending healing energy to ones I am remembering. There is no such thing as coincidence. With the grace of the Creator, I am learning a deeper and more meaningful way to live and move forward. Blessings and love, Mary Ellen


  4. (((Dearest Mary Ellen))) Pilamaya, Beloved One, for the Prayers…I am in Deep Gratitude. It is imperitive, I think, at this pivotal time, for us to walk, talk, eat and pray with deeper connection, so I align my heart and thoughts with yours.

    Be Well my Sister and know that you are loved by me,
    Blessings Abundant,

    Hover over Mary Ellen Great Spirit….


    1. Dearest Akasa, We are bonded at a deep centered level now, you and I resonating two heart beats from our own sacred geographic locations on the planet. I too feel we are being called to a deeper connection to Creator, spirits and forces who are active in a changing great Earth cleansing. What a privilege, honor, and blessing to be called to this deeper meditative state. From here we can send healing energy out to those still entrapped by blindness in the physical world, and to those who don’t have our training to cope, adapt, or change lifestyles in order to help themselves at this crucial period in Earth’s evolution.

      Sister, you are cherished,
      Mary Ellen, Memengwaa Ikway (Butterfly Woman)


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